It is done
Aug. 16th, 2010 03:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pyesetzI have officially declared myself to be a failure as a provider for my family. I have sent a letter to my aunt, asking for some early inheritance so I can make ends meet.
When I joined the Furry Fandom, I was feeling like a failure because I could not figure out a way to get my family out of a country that had gone crazy and whose government wouldn't grant me permission to leave and wouldn't say why not. But eventually I got past that problem.
Now I'm a failure again. But I don't feel like barking. What sound does an anthropomorphized Homo erectus make when things aren't going well? Maybe one of these.
Maybe I should join the otherkin, but their self-description doesn't quite sing to me. My biology is obviously within human range since I have managed to produce offspring. I don't really have species dysphoria or phantom-tail syndrome. My Inner Ape is not a self-exploration exercise, nor a daydream to escape from my burger-flipping existence. I haven't played D&D in years. I am a professional computer wizard who casts spells for a living, but that says nothing about what kind of animal is inputting the keystrokes.
When I joined the Furry Fandom, I was feeling like a failure because I could not figure out a way to get my family out of a country that had gone crazy and whose government wouldn't grant me permission to leave and wouldn't say why not. But eventually I got past that problem.
Now I'm a failure again. But I don't feel like barking. What sound does an anthropomorphized Homo erectus make when things aren't going well? Maybe one of these.
Maybe I should join the otherkin, but their self-description doesn't quite sing to me. My biology is obviously within human range since I have managed to produce offspring. I don't really have species dysphoria or phantom-tail syndrome. My Inner Ape is not a self-exploration exercise, nor a daydream to escape from my burger-flipping existence. I haven't played D&D in years. I am a professional computer wizard who casts spells for a living, but that says nothing about what kind of animal is inputting the keystrokes.
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Date: 2010-08-19 12:29 am (UTC)Not a good situation at all! Maybe it's time to cut up the credit cards and put the whole family on a monthly cash allowance?
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Date: 2010-08-19 01:24 am (UTC)Won't help. Just food, medicine, utilities, insurance, taxes, and gasoline uses up all but $200 of the income for an average month. Add kid clothing and the occasional root canal and I'm already overbudget without having bought any toys or a sump pump. "Mr. Bear" says I should be happy that my house is gaining in value enough to cover the shortfall. I should just treat it like a cash-cow, refinancing every few years to pull more value out of it.
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Date: 2010-08-19 01:45 am (UTC)Regular re-financing of one's home always sounds like a bad idea to me; that should be one area where you can build up equity for your retirement.
I wish I had good suggestions for you; that is certainly not a pleasant situation for you to be in (and may only get worse, as your pups reach university/college age).